finally, today is the end of everything in this second semester. This year i don't know whether to consider a good year or a bad year for me.

this is a memory between my father and me that i want to write it here so that i can always looks at it or even remember it till i am old. for all his life till the day he passed away on MON 14th 2008 he as been working and changing job all his life till the day he can't work. it has been a tough life for him and my mother too. even though he is stubborn in a way but he still care for me and all. Just last month even his condition like that sometime he still go down walk walk and buy something for me and all haiz. sometime i am so regret on the things that i have say or do too. overall he has been a good father to.

On MON 14 2008 thiis is the last day of his breath that actually ended at the timing 8.38. but i am really glad that i stay by his side till he passed away and also even look at him. life is really very fragie once gone it can really gone very fast just a snap and you can't see that person anymore already. Tue is his second day of funrual wake haiz i am so upset on that day when his body arrive at my block and after that been carry into the coffin i cried as my heart really hurts to see that. i am really glad that all my friends did come and support me. Really thanks alot all of you are really my friends. When i am in need of help all of you are there for me so that is why i tell myself this i must recover asap because there are bunch of friends out there to support me. The most importnat person will be dear even though i understand that you can't even attend the wake but i am glad that you are always beside me. i am sorry that i makes you feel that you are so useless because i just don't want you to worried about me. you got your own problem to settle so i don't want to trouble you. WED is the day that my father is been cremeted. my heart was really very sad when i hold his picture i really she bu de him leaving this world but looking at the bright side after all the years he has suffered i feel that it is a good thing that he can leave us peacefully and end the suffering. When we reach mandai for the last chanting i was very very sad because after this his body will be cremeted i really feel like holding onto the coffin and ask them not to cremete. When the coffin slowly been moved forward to the buring place i was crying and crying even my cousin also cry beside me. after everything has been settle i am abit of unstable and cant get used of my father was not around anymore.

This is waht i am aiming to do for this year after everything has been done i tell myself this i want to earn more money so that my dear and my mother can have a comtable life next time in future and no need to suffer anymore. I must stay strong and take care of my mother this is the last word that i told my father when he was at his last stage of his life. I promised you i will do that don't worry.

friends out there i am really glad all of you attend my wake and help me out when i needed help the most. WISH ALL OF YOU GOOD LUCK IN THIS COMING RAT YEAR.