Finally, the school have started and is already 2 weeks ago already. Hopefully, i can aim more good grades. 100 days is coming already and lucky it is at this SUN and we have to go down all the way to CCK there and pray. That is really very far but never mind lucky can able to manage to rent a car if not sure die one ah. Sorry friends if i got no time to accompany you all out and celebrate birthdays with you all because i am working plus there is alot of things i need to do. SO sorry but don't worry i won't forget all of you one. I will ensure this in this part. Haiz abit boring my course don't know whether i choose the correct course or not. Mostly, all is about math haiz damn boring the course that actually interest me after studying all the first year module will be IT and business such as marketing. But now too bad i got to bear with it for two years and maybe study the course that i like maybe next time.





finally, today is the end of everything in this second semester. This year i don't know whether to consider a good year or a bad year for me.

this is a memory between my father and me that i want to write it here so that i can always looks at it or even remember it till i am old. for all his life till the day he passed away on MON 14th 2008 he as been working and changing job all his life till the day he can't work. it has been a tough life for him and my mother too. even though he is stubborn in a way but he still care for me and all. Just last month even his condition like that sometime he still go down walk walk and buy something for me and all haiz. sometime i am so regret on the things that i have say or do too. overall he has been a good father to.

On MON 14 2008 thiis is the last day of his breath that actually ended at the timing 8.38. but i am really glad that i stay by his side till he passed away and also even look at him. life is really very fragie once gone it can really gone very fast just a snap and you can't see that person anymore already. Tue is his second day of funrual wake haiz i am so upset on that day when his body arrive at my block and after that been carry into the coffin i cried as my heart really hurts to see that. i am really glad that all my friends did come and support me. Really thanks alot all of you are really my friends. When i am in need of help all of you are there for me so that is why i tell myself this i must recover asap because there are bunch of friends out there to support me. The most importnat person will be dear even though i understand that you can't even attend the wake but i am glad that you are always beside me. i am sorry that i makes you feel that you are so useless because i just don't want you to worried about me. you got your own problem to settle so i don't want to trouble you. WED is the day that my father is been cremeted. my heart was really very sad when i hold his picture i really she bu de him leaving this world but looking at the bright side after all the years he has suffered i feel that it is a good thing that he can leave us peacefully and end the suffering. When we reach mandai for the last chanting i was very very sad because after this his body will be cremeted i really feel like holding onto the coffin and ask them not to cremete. When the coffin slowly been moved forward to the buring place i was crying and crying even my cousin also cry beside me. after everything has been settle i am abit of unstable and cant get used of my father was not around anymore.

This is waht i am aiming to do for this year after everything has been done i tell myself this i want to earn more money so that my dear and my mother can have a comtable life next time in future and no need to suffer anymore. I must stay strong and take care of my mother this is the last word that i told my father when he was at his last stage of his life. I promised you i will do that don't worry.

friends out there i am really glad all of you attend my wake and help me out when i needed help the most. WISH ALL OF YOU GOOD LUCK IN THIS COMING RAT YEAR.





Year 2007 has passed and 2008 has come. Year 2007 has not really been a good year for me as there are a lot of up and down. Hopefully this 2008 will be a good year for me , family , friends that i know and my loves one too. Haiz even though it is a brand new years i still got some doubt inside me on whether i still want to continue on studying or not. Studying is good so that we can always improve our self but if we doesn't have enough money to continue on then what is good or bad to us. But anyway see how this first year whether i can make it to second year is don't know answer yet. If can make it maybe i will still consider continue on. Ever since DEC and the start of the school holiday has been a very busy period for me since then. Till now didn't really rest or enjoy anything. hopefully this year 2008 i can earn lots of lots of money. So i won't be having any headache over money issue........

anyway is a brand new year wishing all the people that i know a happy new year hope bad things that happen in 2007 has become a past and look forward to a new year 2008 for good things. Hope bad things will be gone forever and good things will stay forever.....

my love for you will not stop..... as you are already part of me part of my heart in my body if one day you leave me my heart will not pump any blood anymore into my body and i will be a living dead forever. LOVE YOU A LOT A LOT......





What does friends to each of us means?
for me friends are the one who you think that you can click along with them
and if you sense something wrong you can tell them from there
they can learn and try to be a better man who don't want to be one right?

recently having this kind of friendship problem again haiz
i am damn sian over it.
it seems like i am back in 7 years during my secondary school times
I come to RP is to study and get a cert i don't wish to get involve in
any of this friendship things am i right or wrong to makes some close friends
as this is life there are things that we cant avoid

which is friends


everywhere we go there are new people we meet and in the end
the new people are the ones you called them as friends
why do people need friends for is it just for the sake of fun.
whereby you know that friends are always beside you no matter what
or it is just taking advantage of them, making use of them.
i feel that there are more then one person outside are treating friends like this

i got my stress over school work, life and many more
and now i have to face this problem again how nice it is man.
is it because of my age that is why in the end there is so many things happening around.
how i wish i don't have this kind of problem to faced.
last semester like this.
this semester also like that
What kind of life is this man
is just like hell

i really apprentice that sab and qz are trying their best to try to bring this bond back
but seriously i can tell you guys this.... this bond won't be coming back at all
why because one of them is not trying or even making the effort to do somethings
and keeps on thinking is my fault... how nice man
if it is my fault until now i will try and talk to you and clarify things out not like you
everyday you are just running away from it how long can you run no matter what in the
end just like robbers also will get caught one day....
Is really up to you to decided whether you still want this friendship or not

from the ways i see you don't treat this friendship serious at all
we are just like a toys to you
you need us you come to us
when you don't need us
you just dump us aside
and the worst part is
we can make a mistake
but you can't make one even
though u happen to make one you won't even bother
to ask or clarify things out

i feel like asking what does friendship to you??
these are the ways that you are giving us
i feel that there is no points carrying on this kind of act anymore
just face it like a man and
after that we can just go each other ways
you go your way i go my way
both of us won't interfere each other again...

and everything will be settle and there is no need to stress over this again





A poems for you guys to read

Four people you will meet in life



Life is the process of finding love; every person
will need to find four
people in their life.



First person is you,

Second person is the one you love most,

Third person is the one who love you most,

And the fourth is the one you spend the rest of
your life with.



In life, firstly you will meet with the one you love
most, and learn how
love feels.

Because you know how love feels, so you can
find the person who loves you
most.

When you have experienced the feeling of loving
others and being loved,
you
will then know what it is you need most.



Then you will find the person who is most
suitable for you, to be able to
spend the rest of your life with.



Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually
not the same person.



The one you love most doesn?t love you.

The one, who love you most, is never the one you
love most.

And the one you spend your life with, is never the
one you love most or
the
one who love you most.

He is just the person who happens to be at the
right place at the right
time.



Which person are you in other people?s life?



No person will purposely have a change of heart.

At the point in time when he loves you, he really
loves you.

But when he doesn?t love you anymore, he really
doesn?t love you anymore.

When he loves you, he can?t pretend that he
doesn?t.

Same goes, when he loves you no more, there?s
no way he can pretend he
loves you.



When a person doesn?t love you and wants to
leave you.

You must ask yourself if you still love him,

If you also don?t love him anymore, do not keep
him just to save your
pride.

If you still love him, you should wish him
happiness, and hope that he
will
be with the one he loves most, not stop him from
it.

If you stop him from finding true happiness with
the one he loves, it
shows
you already don?t love him,

And if you don?t love him, what rights do you
have to blame him for a
change of heart?



Love is not possessive,

If you like the moon, you can?t just take it down
and put it in your
basin,

But the moonlight still shines upon you.

In other words, when you love a person, you can
use another method of
possessing the person.

Let him become a permanent memory in you life.

If you really love a person, you must love him for
what he is.

Love him for his good points, and the bad,

You can?t wish for him to become like what you
like him to be just because
you love him.



If he can?t change to become what you like him
to be, you don?t love him
anymore.



When you really love a person, you cannot find a
reason why you love him,

You only know that no matter when and where,
good mood or bad mood, you
will wish to have this person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the
toughest problems without
asking for promises or listing criterias.

In a relationship, you have to put in effort and
give in at times, not
always be on the receiving end.

Being away from each other is a type of test,

If the relationship isn?t strong, then you can only
admit defeat.

Real love will never become hate.



When two people are in love,

They love to ask each other to swear, to make
promises.

Why do they ask each other to swear and
promise?

Because they don?t trust each other, they don?t
trust their lover.

These swear and promises are useless;

Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you
will never change!

We all know that the sky will never fall; the ocean
will never dry,

Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?



Be careful when making promises; don?t make
promises that you cannot keep.

Swear by things that can never happen, because
it can never happen, so no
harm just saying it casually.

Remember, ?Swearing by things that can never
happen are the most
touching!!?

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but
what you do is another;

The one saying, doesn?t believe; the one
listening, also doesn?t believe.



Which person have you found so far?

In the world so big, which person have you
found?

And who has found you??











Since i have a little time left i am going to write something in my blog
So fast one week have passed and now is friday already next week
school is starting again and have to stress over again with those UT test
and all. Which is so damn boring and at the same time i don't
seem it serve any purpose at all whereby all year 1 are studying the
same things.

haiz even though holiday are short but this one week i didn't really
rest that much as i have been working and going out accompany my gf
sometime i feel that working is much more better then studying
as we know that once pay day come is a happy day but once holiday come
i don't know how should i feel happy or .......
these three years is going to be tough for me especially money issue.
haiz even though life is tough but we still have to go on as this is the road
that all human have to faced

recently sufiya is been hospitalized and she is just been discharge at wed...
hopefully she will recover soon..
after seeing her like that to me i feel that life is really very important that money
also can't buy back one once we lost it. Haiz is good to stay healthy when
we are young we won't know what will happen
to us when we grow old but is good that
we can stay healthy now and do things that we always wanted to do
and not to regret when we are old.
Before we ever wanted to do somethings think twice before doing anything
as we don't want to regret on what we are doing.


hope tomorrow will come fast
i miss u a lot
hope to see u soon tomorrow
take care





haven blog for so long as i got no time to even write my blog
so many things happening around me and there are test every tue and thur
so freaking sian don't know why this school like that i rather one sort everything
come at the end of the semester.
Recently receive an email from my friends saying that he will be getting marry
on the 30 th of nov i was shock when i saw that wahwahawha. Didnt really expected that he
will get marry so soon. DEC got one more whawhaw so many people
getting marry this year. IS IT A GOOD YEAR TO GET MARRY? but nvm hopefully
my times will come soon. HEHE

anyway get myself a part time job already thanks to my friend chun hui who
intro me this job.. lucky his job come in hardy as my money are going to dry up sooner
or later. AND during NOV and DEC there will be alot of things happening so
must earn first then i can enjoy my holiday.
but sadly the time i going to spend with dear will be lesser and lesser. BUT LUCKY you understand what position i am in now. really glad that you understand it. thanks for suffering
those hard times with me
i won't forget and i will try to make it back to you
when i got the chance no worries thanks alot
and also thanks alot for cheering me up when i am down





weekend has ended again haiz once again i am sad again.....
have to wait for weekend again but times really passes fast each day....
next week dear will be station at changi airport i know the work is tough and stress
but no matter what i will be there when you need me ok? try not to think so much ok?
DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!!!!!!

recently i seriously don't know what happen to my this friends of mine we stay with each other in the same bunk for like going to 2 years during our NS life....that time when we are still servicing our NS we all keep have the same dream as we must study hard and work hard...
but once we ORD all of us were so busy hardly contact each other...... then when our poly going to start soon.....he call me and told me he is thinking of withdrawing....then i told him to reconsider... as a friends of his of cos i say something mean so that he will listen my advise as i dont want him to regret..... after that i try to contact him keep on calling him he is like dont want to pick my call and all.....but never mind in the end he quit.... recently one of my friend managed to keep in touch with him...... he is working at CWP at some retail shops.... when he saw me online he chatted with me and i keep on asking what are you working as and where are you working...he keep on answering me retail retail.... and he told my friends that dont tell me and my the other friends because of what scare we come and disturb him..... I WAS LIKE PLS LAH HOW OLD AM I ALREADY...... is my the other friends who he should beware as he is more of the disturb type...... we spend our toughest time togehter in our NS life and this is how i been treated as a friends.......no matter what when i org a gathering for them i will never forget everyone and i also make the effort to call everyone to come and this is what i get..... my friends told me to go and have a talk with him..... i ans him i had enough man....if this is what he want i will just give him what he want and just leave him out of my life as since i am not been treated as a friends so no point..... when come to reservce i also dont even wnat to care when i saw him inside..... don't know why he is like avioding us for what reason.... FORGET IT